you and everything u give me is my EVERYTHING ;

Angry Eraser by ~galvanicprince on deviantART

today wasnt really a nice day ;(

Today was sooooo pissing off!

GOD!

okay, yesterday i told u i brought the CD to school kan?

ok so my friend borrowed it coz she wanted to listen to it so badly.

and she's my family and i trust her so i let her borrow it.

today she gave it back in a nice and awesome condition.

in class, i never did leave my eyesight from my bag coz in my bag is ur CD and ur tee.

then before i went out, i told my class people to NEVER EVER sit on my chair.

well because i scared they accidentally sit on the CD.

so then they were like yeah yeah.

so i thought they understood.

i went out kejap.

then when i came back i saw this GIRL sitting on my chair, ON MY BAG!

i ran in and looked at her.

she just gave me the blur look and so i marah lah.

then i told her "this is my effing place, my effing chair and that is my EFFING BAG that you're sitting on!"

then she stood up and left.

i checked my bag, and guess what i saw?

MY CD WAS BROKEN!

what else did i do?

i took out the CD, took out the tee, hugged the CD, cover my face with the tee and cried.

THE CD MEANT SO MUCH TO ME.

the CD is like your love towards me.

so if the CD breaks, then ur love towards me breaks along lah kan?

some more when i cried it was 2 mins before recess.

then during recess i tak makan, just menangis.

then i asked Nurin to call Nazierah for me.

then Nazierah came and gave me a hug and asked me what happened.

my whole family and Nazierah was trying to help me.

i mean, if i knew the songs, i wouldnt cry like this.

i could just buy a new CD and burn the songs and i can hear the songs again like normal lah kan?

BUT THE THING IS I DONT KNOW THE FWARKING SONGS.

i only know ONE.

which is With Me by Sum41.

that one also because it was my fav.

i got GOD DAMN PISSED OFF and just cried.

right then my feeling was scared, sad and pissed off all at the same time.

dah lah malam semalam i cried before going to bed.

TAMBAH LAGI at school.

my eyes now like eff sakit ok?!

GOSH.

next time, when i tell you not to do something, i have my reasons.

ESPECIALLY IF YOU ASK ME WHY AND I ANSWER I HAVE MY REASONS.

i kata dont do it then just dont lah!

GOSH.

 dah lah tak makan.

nasib baik my family all dapat make me chilled kot.

KALAU TAK, YOU!, memang kena ngan i.

you keep on saying sorry and i keep on telling you to forget trying to make me forgive you and just forget bout it.

tapi you insist jugak.

then when i marah and just refused to look at ur face, u cakap kuat kuat "MESTI DIA BENCI I SEKARANG KAN?!"

eh babe, just coz you ni "TENGKU", i dont really have to respect you.

and you dont always get what you want k?

jangan pikir just coz u have that PANGKAT, you can make people do what you want them to do.

you want me to forgive you, you pikir senang ke?!

after what you did back there was un-forgivable.

that CD is my LIFE.

that CD is my LOVE.

that CD is my AIR.

that CD is what MAKES ME CALM.

that CD is something i listen to EVERY NIGHT.

that CD is my EVERYTHING.

what am i gonna do if my EVERYTHING dah patah?

damn.

i swear i wanna swear those words but i cant coz u're my friend.

i love my friends to death and u're part of it.

but seriously la babe, I DONT KNOW HOW AM I GONNA FORGIVE YOU.

that CD is special coz he gave it to me DURING HIS GIG.

the day WE WERE TOGETHER.

it changes everything even if he gives me a new CD.

it changes EVERYTHING.

haih.

i dono what else to say lah.

went for cheer practice, i had to force a smile ok?

i hate faking my happiness.

i tak sanggup nak cakap dengan my bf langsung TODAY.

NOT AT ALL.

i want to hear his voice.

i want to talk to him.

BUT I CANT.

why?

coz of you.

coz i am afraid of crying on the phone again.

AND I DONT WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT HIS BABY IS SAD.

i dont want him to worry.

I DONT WANT HIM TO WORRY.

breath, afiqah. breathhh.

sabar je lah aku dengan perempuan tu esok.

and i feel like skipping my practice on Thursday coz im afraid of what's gonna happen.

fuck  you hadhira.

bi, i am super sorry about the CD.

i swear i told everyone to NOT sit on my chair.

if you're fcking angry, fine.

i accept.

even if you hate me, i just want you to know that i will still love you.

you're hmm.. "baby".

oh, and u can call me anytime tomorrow k?

if u wanna talk about it.

i think u know edy coz nazierah told you kan?

if u needa say something call me.

if u cant reach me, call her. (:

i love you. and im sorry ;( 

your song for me (: ;

This. by *owlink on deviantART

On Second Thought

________________

The march of men blank to the bases,

I caught you of all the faces,

Its not the idea i've fallen for,

To lie next to you I cant be anymore,

The seconds we leave without saying our goodbyes,

The missing hours of your top fives,

Maybe i just know,

Without having to brush my cheek against your eyelashes,

Taught me something I'll never forget,

Love is an ability not an emotion,

If thts the case,

You be the superhero,

I'll play the damsel in distress,

I felt you let go,

Given a peek in,

Thats all i could ever ask for,

So why have i been lookin all these times when i knew it was you,

Searching through waves to small town dews,

Your words make me tear up,

Im suffocated by your beauty,

In sheer awe of everythin you live to be,

When i lie word by word,

Telling you,

Your beauty of motions,sounds,comlpextion

The tongue in cheek,

Cause words are not just

On second thought i know you,

Within a heartbeat i want you,

Third times the charm,

You broke my seven years of bad luck.

So we've become the theme,

To be the other side of the key,

You be that rusted locket hinge,

You know tht giddy smile of mine you love oh so much?

That it cant ever exist if it werent for me?

Dont be fooling yourself,love

Tangled in my one-size-for-all shirt,

And it fits you perfect,

I tend to argue to pursue,

That perfect sized shoe,

Not knowing if i needed to,

But

On second thought

You've never left me hangin

But I'll take you swinging

From tower tall city lights

To the starting line

That bite on the big apple,

Those small talks on the cuddle.

i loved that little vow you made (:

btw, i was talking bout you the whole day (:

and obviously, i was missing you (:

if you tak percaya you can come to my school and ask my friends anytime :P

i loveeee you <3

yesterday ;

 

yesterday was awesome (:

woke up with a big smile on my face (:

then went makan at Subang Ria at Kelana Jaya.

then we went for my dental appointment.

then we went to mummy's laundry number 1.

which is the Desa Laundry.

then i ter-left my bag there when we left -____-

some more in there got my teddy and stuffs. ;(

then we went home.

then it was 4.30.

i tukar baju.

asked daddy to bangun.

had to wait till like 5.15 for him to actually stand up and pakai baju -__-

then waited in the car.

then finally parents came in.

then sent mumy to laundry number 2.

then sent me to TTDI Community Hall.

(btw, mummy, i say already that it is MY FRIEND'S school party. i didnt say my school party)

then wait and wait.

then like wanted to text you then you came out (:

then i was like gosh.

haha.

u looked stunning. ;P

then met up with nikolai and his sis anouschka (:

then lee introduced me to nikolai and anouschka.

hehe.

then nikolai whispered something to lee.

haha. i dont know what but yeah.

then lee hit nikolai?

i cant really remember.

so yeah.

then lee tried to bring us in.

and some ****ass *** guy stopped us saying we cant go in.

then like lee was like "i told (insert girl's name here xD) that i wanna bring them in and she said can."

then he was like " but you can't bring them in..." yada yada yada.

then we just got pissed off and just went in.

then met up with the dudes coz the dudades weren't here yet.

met harith, joey and shahrul.

then like sat around.

then talk talk.

then harith and nikolai brought something in..

shhh. secret. xD

then it was their soundcheck.

then...

*this is the awesome part*

then you asked if i wanna go walk around.

and i said nah.

then you stood up and ajak me walk around.

so i just followed lah.

then like we walked out.

then we walked to the side of the building and you took out a cd (:

then like before you gave it to me, you said these words ;

" will you be my girlfriend? (: "

then my reaction was like this ;

" :O oh my god. *blushes* okay! :D "

then you handed me the cd and we hugged (:

then we went in.

when we tried to go in, that guy AGAIN said we couldn go in.

then you just like budge your way in. haha.

and the guy ran all across the whole to go ask (insert girl's name here xD) if we could go in.

then *i think it's Navina?* said how many people are there?

then masuk in the room and there was only nikolai and anouschka.

then *Navina* said ok.

then i went in and just went what the **** is that guy's problem? geez..

haha.

then we talked and talked.

then finally people could come in.

then i saw yana and i ran to her and whispered "we're together".

hahahaha.

then we shrieked and like hugged and yana said congrats.

then she went to all the other dudades and told them what happened.

then leysha and vee was like "we told you to wait till we come!"

then you were like "how could i wait? (:"

then we hugged (:

then yana all was like awww.

-____-

haha

then sheryll and pei wen came in.

then we went out for the first performance.

ikhwan pergi bocorkan the glowstick and it kena lee, leysha, me, and yana punya baju.

but lee kena paling teruk lah.

like damn kesian.

some more it was his friend's baju.

hahaha.

then we moved infront for the performance.

then i asked for the glowsticks and you bought it for me (:

then we dance dance and screamed scremed like orang gila.

haha.

then after nikki was some other band. *cant remember the name lah*

then after like 3 bands then it was you guys punya turn.

before you went, gave you a kiss on the cheek (:

when you guys got on stage, all the girlfriends were screaming. haha.

then you guys sang 3 songs.

then we asked for an encore (:

then you guys sang The Reason by Hoobastank with leysha (:

it was awesome lah.

you guys punya band had like the best audience ever.

haha.

then when dah habis, we all walked around.

goofed around outside.

some of you smoked -____-

couldnt tahan then we both went in.

then we sat with joey and sheryll.

then we talked and sat around.

i slept on you comfortably till you woke me up -___- hehe.

then we walked around.

yada yada.

then we moved infront and then you wanted to mosh with the guys.

and i told you to go ahead (:

then you moshed :P

i sat with yana.

then like i was looking behind then when i turned i agak terkejut that you were beside me xD

then we walked and walked.

then joey, sheryll, you and me went to the side of the hall.

then we were talking.

then here's what happened ;

she him

you know i've never kissed a guy? you're like the first guy i've ever kissed. on the cheek lah i mean.

aww. really? i feel so special (:

and do you know i've never been kissed before?

*kisses me on the cheek*

*looks at you with a bright smile*

  

end of story humans.

haha

no detail-fying things.

hahaha.

so yeah.

then i had to go home.

and i saw ur dad (:

he seems nice.

but before that, we went in and met up with nikolai's parents kan?

(:

THEN i had to go home (:

but before that i cried kan?

but you were there to pujuk me.

i love you (:

then i balik.

haha

then you called.

we talked.

and i went to bed with your t-shirt on and your CD playing (:

and today, when i woke up, i terus smiled and took picture with ur baju :P

 

then the glowsticks you bought for me (: *or more like steal lah :P well one of them you bought for me*

(cant upload it. blogger cacat.)

well thats all lah. had fun chatting with you today sayang (:

baby you know i can never get enough of you right (:

i love you sayang.

mosh mosh mosh ;

CANT WAIT CANT WAIT!

GONNA MOSH LIKE CRAZY FOR YOU (: